Woah, 2 blog posts in a week, who’s this? Well last week I published a blog post kicking off my 14 week series called “Loving You” where each week i’ll have a different task or question to answer all aiming to better myself, grow and appreciate myself more and learn to love myself fully. So here goes nothing…
Week One: ‘Write a letter to your 16-year-old self’
Dear (16 y/o) Hannah,
So first of all, this will be hard to hear and you are probably never going to believe me but please try your best to. The next few years will be your hardest years to date’ you’ll struggle, you’ll doubt, you’ll give up, you’ll see no positives, no point, no happiness, however I promise you this changes.
College happens, you actually like it a lot more than you think at the time. Your weird connection to change begins here, things might not work out your way but remember that quote you have in your room;
‘Sometimes on the way to a dream, you get lost, and find a better one’.
Trust this. You have your first long term relationship, which for the majority of it you’ll be happy. You meet some of your closest friends within this time, and create some incredible bonds, cherish them because you’ll realise how much you need them later on. And appreciate the time you have at home, with your family!
You make some silly decisions as any teen does, you lose friends, things make you realise who’s still there for you after this, if it weren’t for all of that, you wouldn’t end up where I am now…
You move away from home, this hits you harder than you imagined but because you have a strong exterior you hide it, you’ll say you’re fine and you mostly are, however please allow yourself to accept the times you’re not. You don’t have to be 100%, 100% of the time.
You suffer heartbreak, truly crushing heartbreak, you hit rock bottom.
You take a very brave leap of faith and another big change happens; this is the start of your re-build. Take all the chances and opportunities that swing your way, some of them don’t come round twice. You start to realise your self-worth. You fall back in love, with yourself and with another special person. The support you get at this point is overwhelming, but promise me you’ll embrace it. You feel like you’ve been given a fresh start. You begin to feel belonging.
You start chasing your dream, faster and harder than you ever have before. Keep pushing, it’s worth it. You’ll still have those moments of self-doubt, knocks on your self-esteem and confidence, but keep pushing. You’ll finally hit a wall. From that wall-hit onward it all becomes worth it; you feel genuinely happy, content and full. Full of love, purpose, support, passion, ambition. You’ll do things you never thought you’d do, you surprise yourself and everyone around you. I promise you; keep pushing because deep down, you don’t admit it enough, but you are one hell of a strong young woman, no matter how many falls you take, how many hurdles you jump. You can do this! Just believe in yourself and learn to forgive and love yourself, it’ll be the best thing you ever do.
This is you at 21; genuinely happy! Bet you never thought that’d happen 😉
Lots of Love and remember;
Never let anyone dull your sparkle!
(21 y/o)Hannah xxx